Hello there blog readers! It’s been awhile! I hope the Christmas season is treating you well! It’s that time of year to celebrate the birth of God’s Son, who came to earth in human flesh to one day die and pay the price of our sins. God loves you so much, and wants you in His family. If you haven’t made the decision, today is the day of salvation! Trust in Him and be saved from death and receive a new life with Him!!
So, aside from the greatest news of all, I’ve got some other pretty good news! Last year, my novel, The Thrall’s Sword, got accepted by a small publisher, Ambassador International. I wasn’t sure if I wanted to go with them at first, but, long story short, I decided a few days ago that I would go with them to publish my book!
I am beyond excited, and in my excitement God has driven me to wrestle with a few things. What exactly are my motives for writing and publishing this book? Back in 2014, when I started writing this novel, I would say I was passionate about writing and could think of nothing else I’d rather do with my free time. Historical fiction fascinated me; including the historical fact that Vikings had such strange funeral rituals as to burn longships on fire with all their possessions, along with a slave girl to supposedly serve the dead master in the after life.
While at that time, I wasn’t a great conversationalist because of my shyness, within the world of my novel anything was possible. I could create complex characters, character dynamics, tension, plot twists, and climaxes. Stories and people came to life for me and made me feel more alive than I did in real life at times. Writing books justified my existence, whereas in real life, I seemed to only be “half-there” or “half-alive” because of my shyness.
Over the years, I’ve become “more alive” in real life–all thanks to Jesus Christ! As I have grown closer to Him, I have begun to awaken to things that really matter. I have become a better conversationalist (though I am definitely still a work in progress!). I have grown in my love for people. I have begun to value time spent with people more than my writing. A new dream has sparked within me, to teach English overseas to build relationships with people, and to share the good news of Jesus Christ in a world of darkness.
My desires have evolved into more practical and more necessary areas of teaching a common language and saving lost souls. And, frankly, fiction writing seems like the exact opposite of that.
Nevertheless, as I have grown and changed, so has my novel. What started out as simply historical fiction with no mention of God, evolved into a transformational, redemptive story of God’s forgiveness. If you have ever read any of Francine Rivers books and liked those, then I think you will enjoy my novel. Her books inspired me to write a powerful tale of a hardened heart softened and restored. My main character, Sigrid, is very stubborn and will assuredly annoy you at least once, only to wonder at her transformation at the end. While my book is fiction, through it I depict beautiful realities, because of the many timeless truths such as hardened hearts in need of a Savior, and a God who grants forgiveness to all who ask for it. Thus, I trust that God will speak to each person in the way He desires through my novel.
Today, I am more in love with Jesus than ever. I am passionate about discipleship, and I long to give over my life to serving God wherever He leads. Most of all, my desire has become truly and simply to know Him more and more. He is good. He is kind. He is worthy!
As I look back at the years I have spent poring my time and energy into this novel, I wonder at the fact that I had so much motivation, so much thoughtfulness, so much care put into this work of fiction. The truth is, it astounds me that I was propelled so strongly to complete this piece and make it what it is today. It astounds me the amount of patience I have had these five long years.
The only thing I can do is give credit to God. He gave me the gift of writing, He gave me motivation, He gave me patience, and He gave me love for Him and faith in Him (as He does for all who ask Him!). The truth is, every ounce of credit goes to Him. Apparently He wanted me to write a book and get it published. Apparently He wanted people to read this redemptive story. Apparently He is doing something through my life that I could never imagined back in 2014.
It’s only because of Him that I exist, because of Him I wrote a book, and because of Him I am who I am today. I want to give Him the supreme glory, because without Him, none of this would even matter. With Him, we have life–fullness of life! A life with meaning and purpose.
Please pursue Him, because He has an adventure for everyone of His beloved children. Please love Him, because He loves you abundantly more than you could imagine. Please surrender everything you are to Him, because none of it was ever yours anyway.
Thank You, Jesus, for all You have done and all You will do! Amen.
Do you struggle with giving the credit to God? Do you struggle with having impure motives, and needing God to purify your motives? Comment below your thoughts.
Thank you so much, and have a wonderful Christmas!